Junior Year . . . My things have changed

Wow...so it was my every intention to come to blog.spot and not know the name of my old blog from almost 3 years ago and immediately it popped up. It shocked me a little and i decided that because it was part of my past, and a person's past helps make up who they are today, I would just keep adding to it. My reasoning for getting on, and feeling like I need to put my thoughts into words is because I have some much I want to achieve and I feel like I'm doing it all, but only getting a third of the benifits. For example, I feel like a runner, running a race, but I'm not pushing off as hard as I can, I'm not picking my feet up off the ground...they are just suffling along. I feel like I'm doing the least possible to "just get by". I'm a second year Nursing student and I've been making 80's, 76's; you know the just passing grades. I want to work hard at everything I do. I feel like I waste time, but then again, I want a chance to relax and take a breather. I joined the cross country team this year and I'm loving it and hateing it at the same time. I have been trainning for a good month now...with a bit of back pain and I'm a little over weight so I feel like the coaches look at me like a joke. I just want to get better. I want to be creditable...I feel like, honestly, I might lie....to make a story seem better, to get out of awakward siituations, to inflate myself, to to make others think I thought of them when I didn't....and at the end of the day I don't feel very good about it. I want to start "new", to start fresh...knowing that I will mess up...but I need to keep my head high, and keep working for Hannah...its my life, and I ask forgiveness for the mistakes I've made. I ask for energy, for vitality, longevity, and peace. I want to achieve all i can.
Mon, Oct 06 7:33am
8am Pool workout
8:45am Breakfast
9am Class
11:15am Shower
11:40am Homework
12:30am Break/ lunch
1:30am Homework
4:10pm - Team Meeting
5pm - Workout
7pm Dinner
8pm Homework
10pm Relax/ Bed

Goals for the day:
Write down everything I eat / If it will be too hard to calculate the calories don't eat it
Drink water ( atleast 2 earthfare bottles)
Run/ Swim like you mean it
Feel pretty
Catch up with cleaning, laundry, homework
Stay motivated, pray, and remember its a beautiful day.
write more about what I've been going through later...pool workout.